Frustration

I feel frustrated right now. Why, because I am a crappy writer. Earlier in the week I got some feed back on a previous paper and was told it was crap. Plus I spent the day trying to start a new paper. I've rewritten the first two pages multiple times and hate it. I hate what I write. Despite taking great notes and writing up a decent outline, it's been crap writing. If I could just tell what I know about what I'm writing about, the discussion would be good, cohesive and intelligent. But that's part of the problem in my writing. I try to write as a speak, and as I was told earlier this week, that's just not graduate level writing.

Mostly my writing these days feels very disconnected ideas between ideas. Furthermore my sentences that lack any flow. Thus the rewriting and rewriting. It's making some sense now, but I need to rewrite the last two paragraphs again and it just frustrates me.

Now I've always hated writing, but I used to be able to write far better then I currently do. Even with the dyslexia, I was far more cohesive. I still had typoes and bad spelling due the dyslexia, but these days, it's simply bad. I'm also tired f my bad and sloppy typing. I know how to spell at a OK rate, but I find myself making far more typing mistakes then actual dyslexic bad spelling. "teh" being one of the most commen of course.

Anyway, back to the grind.