Year End

It's the last day of the year and this is where things stand for me.

Just over 3 years ago I moved to Portland to leave LA and leave a job that was making me miserable. For the first 6 months I was here, my moods was up and down. I loved being here and suck, but the lack of work and purpose in my life took a toll on me too. I really felt I was spinning in place and not accomplishing anything. Then, I landed a job and started grad school. I was happy working again and meeting new people, and then school, again new people and new things to learn. But within months I was overwhelmed both physically and mentally. I stopped seeing friends and became a hermit. Work was 50+ hours a week and school work was what I could fit in. My weight went up and my moods became short and irritated. Worst of all was the over the over all stress. My social skills actually plummeted too. I couldn't tell you one thing that was actually stressing me, the job it self wasn't really hard, but the time was. School was too.

Over the next year, things had to change. I went from full time school to part time. I was promoted at work too. Then I witched jobs, from what that at times's bored me to one that interested me. Things began to settle down, 40 hour work weeks and part time school agreed with me and I could actually go and do things again. But I still tended to play the part of a hermit as my social skills were still rough and my moods never really flattened.

The year started out good, the company I worked for was finally finishing it's film and my work would start to peak. I spent months building a 40,000 digital picture archive and working on the crew's portfolios. I handled it and was ready for more. But things at work changed with new management and I found myself on the outside again. This November, I and 70 others were let go. I saw my part in this coming and for a while I hate to say and could feel my moods slip in to anger and depression too often. I was actually relieved when it happened. I wasn't happy and it was time to go, I ended up with a decent package and could go back to school full time again and be done with it.

So how do I feel now? I feel like I'm spinning my wheels again. School has actually been rather easy and I hate to say it boring too. I'm bored really easily these days. I feel like I want to be done and moving forward with my life too. This is feeling that most people I know are feeling here in Portland. So I know I'm not alone, I hear it from friends who have spent more then a year unemployed and are in a real bind in comparison to me. Honestly I know I have it much better then most, so I don't want to play to the pity train. Honestly there is far more deserving and needing here. On the other hand I down and out too. I want out of this, I actually now want out of Portland too.

OK, have a great new year and hopefully next year won't be so filled with all the crap that this year dumped on it.

Dear 47th Street Photo

Hi,

I am writing to you in response to the email I received from you today. IN that email, you indicated that the "Opteka XL Remote Release Cord for Canon" I purchased from you (November 28) via Amazon had been " delivered at 11:46 AM on December 21, 2009 in BROOKLYN, NY." Thank you for that update, but I have a few follow up questions to ask you.

First, while the item in question might have been delivered at 11:46 AM on December 21, 2009" I for one didn't receive it, nor will you find that I or anyone I know signed for said item. Which leads to question number two, who did in fact sign for this and better yet, why was the item I purchased sent to Brooklyn NY? I guess this also leads to question number three, why did it take 3 weeks to get there and why are you so late in getting back to me after I had sent 4 previous emails asking for an update? Obviously you could have told me back on December 21st. Also, since you should also have my invoice in front you by now, you might have noticed that I don't live in Brooklyn NY. I suspect that who ever you did send it too is either surprised or is very happy with their purchase.

Since I've already waited a month for an item I purchased and never received and really don't want wait another month for you to completely screw up my order again. Please take this email as cancellation of said order and I will lodging for a complete refund with Amazon since I never received my purchase. I hope you won't mind if I also fill out that how bad the service was with your company with Amazon as as well. I'd hate to find out that some I knew ordered anything with you and had to deal with complete incompetents. Unfortunately though, I'm sure you'll get over it.

Thanks,

Me.

Stupid

whiskey dick.

Ugg

Was woken up this morning at about 6am due to a muscle in my knee spazming.
This has been going on for the last two days, but not with this type of pain.
Ibuprofen and an ice pack late and it feeling better. But not down to normal.
Ugh

Semster Ends:

and it looks like I survived with two "A's". or an "A" and a "B".
Not sure yet one of the them though. Oddly enough I don't know if I learned very much from either class I hate to say. I could probably use rereading the Project Management book, but the Social Studies stuff bored the living hell out of me. No, really it did.

Two more classes for next semester. IN other updates:

I hope to hear more about the NYC job in the coming weeks. So maybe a trip out east at least for the interview. On the local work front, it's been rather slim. I think the only job I've applied for I might want is that one at the Art Museum, but I suspect I'm only nominally qualified. My knowledge of actual art history is mediocre if you ask me.